My ASS is sore! Yeah that's right by butt cheeks hurt! I had Zumba last night. Man is that a workout! I was getting a little too into my squats last night :) oh well. I like the pain, it means something is working. I'm going to let Kevin kick my ass in raquetball again tonight. I am so bad it's really sad...actually to my brothers it is somewhat amussing I guess. I can't blaim them, I'd laugh at me too.

I'm having an intense chocolate-craving-period. I'm giving in too. I'm mean enough right now, I'm not sure what I'd be capable of if I didn't have a fudgesicle every now and then. I love me some chocolate right now. It's not going to be a good weigh in this week. I'm still working out, but I'm giving into the chocolate demons!

We're getting the fam together for a fun game of Wally Ball tomorrow night. I always have so much fun playing that. (another sport that makes me look like I could be in the special olymics) I run into the walls enough that I wish they were padded rooms.

I'm trying to keep myself busy with workouts that don't feel like "workouts". I'm finding stuff to do besides go up on the treadmill and eliptical every night. That stuff gets so routine and boring. I look forward to the other things more. And finding peopel who want to do "activities" on the weekends is awesome because then I don't just watch America's Next Top Model reruns and eat all day. We play volleyball on Saturday nights and now Wally ball on Fridays...and my Zumba on Wednesdays, I just need something different to do on Mondays to break up the monotany of the gym.

Time for Truth Syrum*(sp)

To all of my readers (I think I'm up to 5 now!!) I'm sorry I've been neglecting to share my "day 2 day". It goes like this. Last week after working as hard as I did the first week I lost ZERO pounds! Not even a stupid tenth! I've seen all the seasons of the show, so I know I can expect low numbers after big numbers, but I was bummed and I fell off the wagon! I didn't put as much effort into tracking food...basically beacause I knew I was eating bad! And I only worked out about 3 times last week! But it all evens out I guess cuase I still managed to drop 5 lbs last week :) That's good, but I have to get back on the serious train this week. I've had a banana and multi vitamin today and I am starving for my awesome lunch of soup and sandwich! Tonight is going to be rough at the gym, but I have to do this! I pulled a totally "lindsay" last week. I got frustrated and gave up! But the best part is... I can start again! I didn't give up forever! I AM GOING TO LOOK CUTE IN THE BRIDESMAID DRESS THIS SUMMER!!!!

Anywhos, so.... I did play raquetball for the first time ever last week and OOOFTAH!!! That is a workout and a half, not to mention how sore I was for 3 days afterwards!!!! I felt like I was 80! I heard things pop in my body as I was playing and my brother fell to floor laughing at me at least 3 times. I always considered myself "cordinated" but maybe I'm not.... I really looked like I could have played raquetball in the special olympics. I'm determined to get half way decent at it though. I hate sucking at stuff.....

Thanks for reading and I'm back baby!

Biggest loser -- day 13

Well I caved last night! I wasn't strong enough! I ate the spaghetti....and the garlic toast. All in all I downed about 500 calories at 8:30 last night. It was so good! but man can I tell today! I'm feeling sloth-like this morning. I ate too much and way too late in the night. The only thing keeping me from feeling so guilty is my workout at Zumba last night. An hour strait of intense cardio. Well to make it even worse. I get an email this morning saying that the weigh in for the week will be on Friday (tomorrow morning) instead of Saturday! I miss a whole day to burn off the damn spaghetti! I was so excited last week to weigh in, and now I just feel like I've been eating good (aside from last night) and I've been working out at least an hour every day, so technically I should lose weight, but I'm just not feeling too hopeful right now. AHHH> I'm going to have a good workout tonight and I think I'm going to do the early one tomorrow. I need results!!! I'm in a bad mood about all of this! I need to snap out of it! I just need it to be five and I can go burn off some steam (and spaghetti) and I'll feel better. And my weigh in will be fine tomorrow, it probably won't be 8 again...but thats ok. (I'm talking myself down right now so I don't scream at the next person who talks to me)

Thanks for reading....

Biggest Loser -- day 11

Day 11. I am so sore! ouch! I played some wally ball last night, and ooftah did my back get a nice little workout! After wally ball I went upstairs at the cc and did about 45 minutes cardio. I felt like a machine last night. I could have went for a lot longer but I wanted to get over to curries to go tanning before they closed, so I just did my 45 and left. In retrospect I probably should have kept working out, but I am so pale I can't handle it anymore! Tracking my food has been one of the smartest things I've ever done. I knew I ate alot before, but this is making me see how much I over did it in the past. My diet isn't too complex....I just cut calories big time and no pop! Since I'm having a lot less calories a day i have to eat things that will fill me up, so I eat whole wheat bread or oatmeal for breakfast and I try to have either a whole wheat wrap or wheat pasta in my lunch or dinner. It seems to be working cause I don't feel like I'm starving. I feel amazing right now. I feel like I'm in control. I control my body instead of my body controlling me and food controlling me. I don't know the last time I felt like this! It's a great feeling, I just have to keep myself motivated and keep going!

Biggest Loser -- week 2

So, weigh in was Saturday and I lost 8.2lbs this week. I was so excited. I even cried a little. It's so awesome to see results from hard work. 11 weeks to go! I gave myself a little bit of a free day on Saturday as a reward. I didn't go too crazy though cause I have another weigh in this saturday and I have to stay focused. I'm just so proud. I know it's only been a week, but I feel so motivated and ready to give this my all. I got some "goal" pants last night. A pair of jeans I think I'll be able to wear in a month if I keep going!!!! It's amazing what a girl will do for a cute pair of jeans :) I'm going to play wallyball tonight, that should be fun. I'm just so happy right now. I really think I can do this! I can compete for the $5000 and I can be the cute me that is hidden inside of the present me!

Biggest Loser -- day 6

I went to my first Zumba class last night. It was soooooo much fun! It was a great workout-holy cow. After Zumba I went on the treadmill for a half hour walk/jog. I felt great last night. Well, for a littl while at least..... I'm having extreme mood swings. Letting go of all of my comfort foods has been hard and it's doing something to me emotionally. I guess it would be that way for anyone giving up something they have abused. I have definately abused my body with food. I want sugar all the time. I want candy and cake and ice cream and ....anything sugary and sweet. I have the 100 calorie oreo candies from nabisco and they seem to be helping alot with that craving. I have one in the afternoon, when I really crave that sweetness, and I'm good for the day. This coming from someone who can eat a huge bag of M&M's in one sitting.

I'm getting so anxious for weigh-in! I wonder how everyone else in the contest is doing? I can't believe I've almost made it through a week. Only 11 more! I am going to do this! This time I won't quit....Ihave to keep telling myself that.

Day 5

Day 5! I tried to wake up for a morning workout again...I just can not get out of bed at 5:30!!! I'm going to keep setting that alarm though and one of these days I'm going to get up and feel great about it. If I just do it a couple times I'll be fine...It's just getting that first time out of the way that's the hard part.
I'm going to zumba class tonight. I dont know what it is exactly but from what i've heard it's a mix of dance and aerobics, so it will atleast be interesting.
Last night I had a pretty good workout. I did elliptical for 10 minutes then did 15 minutes doing the weight circut and repeated 3 times. SO it turned out to be a good little hour and some... I felt amazing afterwards. UNTIL i decided I want to start tanning again. I went up last night and did the ameature tanning mistake...too many minutes for the first time in a bed in months!!! I'm fried a nice lobster color right now. At least it doesn't hurt too bad :) I just am thinking if I'm losing weight why not get a tan and have the whole package? Tan fat looks better than white fat anyways!!
I'm getting so anxious for weigh in on saturday. I am aiming to drop 4lbs a week. Sounds crazy sometimes, but sometimes it seems very attainable. I'll see what happens with the scale this week. I know some weeks will be high and some will be low, but on average i need to drop 4lbs a week to be able to compete for the $5000 prize that the biggest loser competition is awarding 1st place! Gosh $5000 would be so nice right now. I just have to keep remembering how bad I want it and even more how bad I want to be my old self again! Oh my old self...now thats a whole new post :)

day 4

Wooftah! Day 4!

I have been tracking my food on an excel spreadsheet for 4 days now. I am already seeing the benefits of this. It is really holding me accountable for what I eat. I've been doing such a good job with eating better. I know it's only been a few days, but that is a big deal for me. Today would have been an easy day to crash. My grandpa came into my work today and asked if he could take me to lunch (this is a first) and he wanted to go to McDonalds. I didn't want to be rude, so there I was at McDonalds thinking of how awesome their fries are fresh out of the scolding oil and smelling those delicous crispy chicken sandwiches....ahhhhh!!! I want one! But actually I didn't. Yeah they taste good but I have been eating so light that I'll feel like crap if I dive into a number nine right now. So I got a salad and used up 1/3 of my calorie intake for the day. I feel super full too. A bit tooooo full. I've never gotten so full off of a salad. Can my body already be getting used to this lighter eating???? In just 4 days????? I feel great to get so full off of lettuce and chicken. And when I'm working out tonight I won't be thinking "gotta burn off those french fries" I'll just be thinking the normal thoughts of "gotta burn off the last two years :)"

Day 4:
I survived a trip to McDonalds!!!

The Biggest Loser

I joined the Biggest Loser contest in town...my first step to doing something for myself!! So I just weighed in on Saturday Jan 5th. I've been dieting for 3 days!!! That's a pretty big deal for a girl like me. I just need to find a way to eat better but not feel like I'm starving myself or depriving myself of goodies. I don't know I guess I've always had a problem with food, but I used to be so active it didn't really matter much. I can't remeber why I stopped working out or when I stopped caring that my clothes don't fit like they are supposed to. I have gained 50 pounds in 2 years...if that isn't asking for diabetes or a heat attack then I don't know what is. I've been trying to make a change for a few months I get on these kicks of working out, then I get sick or my favorite show is on, or blah blah...something stops me and I go back to eating like crap and not caring! Maybe I'm just that lazy... I dont think that's it though. I'm hoping that if I write about what I'm doing maybe I'll be able to hold my self a little more accountable. So day 3 of the diet and I'm actually feeling really good about myself today. My arms are a little sore from my intense workout last night, but not as sore as I was anticipating so thats good news! I have a nice cardio workout planned for tonight and I'm just trying to figure out what I should make for supper that fills me up, but doesn't make me feel all weighed down. HHMMMMM>